There it is…red spots and and some tiny blisters on his palms and feet. I can’t see clearly if there are any in his mouth but none on his lips. Immediately we bring him to see the pediatrician. She examined him and confirmed that it’s HFM disease. She gave us the medicine for his mouth and calamine lotion.

Jonathan looks alright so far. He is still moving around but a bit restless. He is not bothered by the blisters in his mouth, palms and feet. We went for dinner after that and he can still finished his rice with bak kut teh soup. I had to lie to him that if he is not eating, we have to spray the medicine in his mouth.

Praying hard that his condition won’t get worst the next day. Praise the Lord, he wakes up this morning greeting me good morning. Gonna feed him some cooling stuff to clear the heatiness.

So there goes our long weekend…at home. Hopefully he recovers fast because we are flying off to paradise the week after next.

Up to you lar…

Few times I posted a question to him and his reply to me was… up to you lar…

Me: Jonathan, do you want to drink chocolate milk or strawberry milk?
Jon: Up to you lar…

Me: Jonathan, when you grow up, you want to be a doctor or a teacher?
Jon: Up to you lar…

Oh, my…where this little boy learn this from?

Oh, no…from me! Quite often “up to you” is my reply to Darling whenever he asked me to make a decision, like where to eat, what to eat, can buy this or not, etc.

I then asked Jonathan…

Me: Jonathan boy, do you know what it means when you say “up to you“?
Jon: It means…”I don’t want“.

Hah! So my son thinks that whenever Mommy answers Daddy with “up to you” means Mommy is angry or disagreeing with Daddy. Clever boy. It is kind of true but not always true because sometimes I am undecisive and it’s so much easier to push the burden of thinking to another person.

Whenever there is a birthday party in school, he will show me the party pack he got and tell me what kind of cake his friends were having.   At this age, he knows how to ask for things.  He told me he wanted a football cake and party pack for his friends. He even tell me what he wants in his party pack.

So I got Jerrica to make a football cake for him. Why football?  I really have not idea. He saw this football cake in Secret Recipe.  That was where is said he wants a football cake ONLY football.  The one in Secret Recipe had a scarf wrapped around the football. So he will always remind me that he wants the football ONLY.

Here are Jonathan’s friend in school.  They sang birthday song to him in 3 languages… English, Mandarin and BM.  Cute fellas. One of the children asked me if I am Jonathan’s sister or mommy. So funny…

Lucky boy is he. Loved by people around him. His cuteness overshadowed his mischievousness.  Never had I in my childhood received so many presents.

Jonathan boy, no matter how mischievous you are, you are always our little boy…our greatest pride and joy. Daddy and Mommy pray that you will grow up to be a God fearing child. We pray that you continue to stay healthy and safe.

And this is how he wants to eat his mooncake.

He finished up the whole mooncake?

Nah…he didn’t.

There was once he got angry when I sliced the mooncake into pieces. Unlike Daddy and Mommy, he dislike the egg yolk. Good…less one person fighting for the egg yolk.

So here wishing everyone, a Happy and Joyous Mid-Autumn. Enjoy yourself with your love ones.

One of this kind of truck stoped beside us at the traffic light while sending Jonathan to school one of the mornings.

And you know what he told me…”Mommy, see the truck got BLANKET.”

Infact, he is nothing different than most newbies. In the first week of school, he asked me to go to school with him, refused to enter his classroom, wanted me to stay with him, held my hand so tightly, sticked to me and cried when I left him there. But he was alright after some pampering from the teacher and principal. Despite that, he still love to go to school. He would come and tell me, “Mommy, I got school today”.

Second week was a total change of him. He put on his uniform all by himself.  I let him take his own sweet time in buttoning his shirt,  while I make up and dress up for work. He went down from the car willingly and held the teacher’s hand, said good morning to teacher and then waived goodbye to me.

He is into the 3rd month of schooling. This boy of mine is still excited about school and I pray that he will always be. But Mommy and Daddy is so stressed out every morning having to wake up a sleepy head.  I try my best not to make him grumpy else I’ll be late to work for entertaining a grumpy kid. When he got up from the wrong side of the bed, he refuse to bath, laze on the bed/couch, refuse to drink his milk, walk like a old man. When cupid strikes him, he talks, wear uniform on his own, take breakfast, carry his own school bag, wear his own shoe.

Funny things or angry moments happen every morning.  Overall, I am thankful and glad. My boy had stepped in to another phase of childhood.

So not used to not having her around. She used to keep me busy – making her milk, sterilizing her bottles, keep watch of her feeding time, administering her medication, bathing her, nappy changing, washing, drying and folding her tiny clothes and organizing her closet.

Missed kissing her, stroking her head admiring her short fine hair, breastfeeding time, massage time, having her chubby cheek resting on my shoulder, watching her sleeping peacefully, cradling her in my arm and singing to her.

Readjusting my life, living without her and to never let the memories of Samantha fade.

In times like this, God’s incredible grace is there to pick us up, to revive lost hope, to heal broken hearts, and to strengthen us.  God has given to me two wonderful man before He gave me Samantha, for a purpose. That is to keep me going and never let me fall today.

I, take u, to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse………to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

When the doc told us that Samantha is very ill, Darling and I hold on to each other and said, “Let’s go through this together.” Darling had been very supportive throughout this period of uncertainty and pain. He understands my heart and my need. And now, we have each other to share the emptiness and grieve for our loss.

Samantha @ 2 months

God blessed us with Jonathan to keep us busy. He puts joy and laughter in our heart.  There was no chance for us to drop our tears in front of him.  He now knows that her little sister Samantha is with Jesus.  When asked, he will say, “Samantha is sick and die already. Samantha is in heaven now.” We still talk to him about her little sister Samantha hoping that she will always be in his mind.

Jonathan @ 31 months; Samantha @ 2 months (before her condition started to deteriorate)

Here, we would like to say thank you to all of you for your prayers and concern for our family. I felt so touched by all of your love for Samantha. May God bless you.

We had a party for Jonathan 3 year old birthday on 10.10.2010.  A belated celebration as his actual birthday falls on a Friday. Some snapshots from the party. More in Facebook.

Engaged a face painter. At least got the kids and adults occupied with something. Check her out here.

Took this chance to meet up with some mommy bloggers…Chanel, MC, Yugene, Merryn , Joanne and Rachel.  Thanks guys for coming and the gift for Jonathan and Samantha.  And it was my first time meeting Chanel and Mchyl. Was so happy when they accepted my invitation.

So what is the takeaway from the birthday party?

No more birthday party for you, boy. I hope…

Our very first party was on his fullmoon. We had a food caterer for both events and the no. of guests was more of less the same. But we were not feeling as hectic as this time.  Kimmy and I were going around entertaining the guests. And you may or may not know that I am not a sociable person and will try to avoid it if I can. So that Sunday was like forcing myself to greet and talk to people I know and worst, people I’m meeting for the very first time. Just doesn’t know what to say and how to make them feel not lonely.  Sorry guys, for being a bad host.

His favourite website now is the Disney Family Games. I personally find that this website provides many good activities for toddlers to learn words and songs.

Here’s a video of him playing one of the number matching game.

Jonathan @ 3 Years Old

From my Mommy & Daddy:

Jonathan boy, you are our gift from God and we love you so much.
You are a smart and obedient boy,
you amaze us every day and bring joy into our lives.
May you always know that God loves you,
and that you are chosen to do good and wonderful things in your life.
And may the angels guide you, protect you all the days of your life.

He begged me to carry him in the shopping mall yesterday.  Oh dear, he is so much heavier than he was the last time I carried him 9 months ago. He is now 15kg.

His vocab has improved a lot. That makes our conversation more understandable and enjoyable. Now, he is able more willing to follow you read or sing. He can answer your questions and tell you stories from pictures or retell the tv shows he had watched. His favourite tv show is Special Agent OSO.

Since the arrival of Samantha and with her condition that requires more care and attention, I spent less time with Jonathan now. I could only watch him play on his own. Missed putting him to sleep and snuggling beside him. Missed our bathroom fun time. I missed our bonding time so much!

With a new baby in the family, he is learning to behave like a brother.  He is a great lil’ helper and “runner”. He has the brotherly instinct in him naturally. Whenever Samantha cries, he will put aside whatever he is doing and be the first running to her little sister, comforting her. He watched how I take care of Samantha. He reminds me when I forget her handky. He imitates how I express breastmilk. He even use a handky to wipe his chest as how I clean my nipple every time I finished expressing milk. *slap head*

Tell me you like his new hair style. I love it but many want to chop off his “tail”.

Last year, Mommy put the candle on his cake. This year, he tried to put the candle on his own cake but smudged the cream.

Last year, he couldn’t tell/show his age. This year, he tried to say and could show that he is 2 years old.

Last year, his cousins help him to blow off the candle. This year, he blew off the candle by candle all by himself but with multiple tries coz his blow was too gentle.

Last year, Daddy and Mommy help him to cut the cake. This year, he wouldn’t let go the knife but didn’t do a good job coz the fondant was too hard for him.

Last year, he ate the cake. This year, he ate only the sugary sweet little car and big airplane.

Last year, he face was full of chicken pox. This year, his face is as smooth as Mommy.